03 December, 2009

I HAVE a life

After slogging my ass off for the past 1 1/2 years, I finally get to rest. Like really rest. No more targets, no more office politics, and most importantly, no more bitches! yay!

This afternoon, I had this damn weird dream. I dreamt that I was showering in this huge ass bathroom, and when I wanted to turn off the water, I just couldn't! And I was so stressed. Why, I have no idea. Anyway, baby called and he totally saved me la, I was so stressed I didn't dare to go back to sleep. Okay, that was super random.

Yeap, back to my life. I never felt so good for very long. You know, for my current job, I kinda work round the clock. And I'm serious! I get clients calling at weird timings and asking super random questions. Even when I leave my office, I don't exactly 'knock off'. Now, I get 'me' time. Something I've always yearned for but was impossible.

I'm super excited! I've got this whole freaking list of things that I've always wanted to do but repeatedly shelved back due to the lack of time. Now I get to do all these things! But guess what, the things that I wanna do all require quite abit of $$$. Like I've wanted to learn oil on canvas painting for the longest time. I wanna learn calligraphy too! I wanna attend cooking classes. I wanna take up dancing classes. I wanna do so many things! But they're so ex. Arghghhgh. Should've saved up in the past.

Anyway, we decided that we shall not go bintan. Shall spend the money doing fun things in Singapore! I shall come up with our plan tomorrow. Who says you can't have fun without alot of money. I will prove you wrong!

"We're divas on a dime"
- Su

02 December, 2009

i'm a total genius

This is gonna sound bimbotic but I don't care! I actually taught baby how to reduce the number for the minimum axis on some graph! It's important okay, cuz it's for some assignment *ahem*.

Anyway, back to my nails, it's super nice. I like french tips, but manicures dont last more than 2 days without it chipping etc. It doesn't help that I'm super clumsy too. I can like accidentally knock against some sharp edges on the day the manicure is done. zzz


My nail extensions! Super chio but it's giving me helluva bad time trying to type =(

Looks super compatible with my hello kitty keyboard! Got this at city square. Quite ex tho.
The packaging is super cute la. But not sure what's with the "I Love Apple" thing.


Super cute la, there's like kitty heads everywhere

Ridiculously cute tea pot! I've been drink lotsa pu-er tea since I bought this hahahah.
 
I bought super lots of mags from MPH cuz it's how cheap. Yeap, on the extreme right it's Invisible Trade. I know this book's out for eons, but never really thought of buying it then. Since it's relatively affordable, I thought i might as well just buy it! I'm 3/4 way through the book, quite an interesting read.

Lashes from Sasa, didn't see this brand of lashes in Singapore though.

Random things from Face Shop

These are nicer than wrigley's!

Actually I bought more stuff but too lazy to take photos. Anyway, we went to this Hong Kong cafe (can't recall the name).

The teh peng is damn nice. I highly recommend it!

Some longan tea, I was so upset cuz I meant to order another drink. You know how irritating it is - cafes like these like to cram all their dishes and the like all onto a lil piece of paper. It's how confusing la, there are tiny boxes everywhere! So, moral of the story is, *ahem* it's not my fault that I ticked wrongly.

Waffles with banana and chocolate sauce! Heavenly

Bacon-wrapped fishcake. I thought I tasted water chestnut too (weird combination). It looks super disgusting, but tastes quite okay actually.


Cheese baked pork chop rice. I think the one at Kim Gary's is better. Not that this one sucked though, just abit bland.

Inside the cafe

Abrupt end. I'm so tired I'm gonna sleep now. *yawn*

30 November, 2009

i freaking cant get to sleep!

okay, i have no idea what i'm doing at such an unearthly hour -_-

i'm supposed to be asleep. but. i. can't. yes.

i'm super irritated with myself. i have this sudden urge to blog, and that's why i'm here! problem is, it's so freaking hard to type with my nail extensions. it's been a week and i still can't get used to it =( but it's super chio la, so i guess i'm willing to compr0mise.

anyway, i went to jb for the first time (in many years). it was...... well, okay? not as bad as i thought it would be. BUT, i was only at city square lol. so technically, i didnt really venture beyond the m'sian customs hahaha. anyway, back to city square, it's FREAKING fun i tell y0u. okay i was exaggerating. but still, i enjoyed myself so much i felt super guilty when i got back. perhaps that's the reason why i can't get to sleep.

i know i sound super ridiculous but sometimes i feel this sense of guilt whenever i feel over the moon. but not in a way like 'i think i don't deserve to be happy' or something, but more of 'hmm, here i am, so blessed. there are so many more people out there who aren't as fortunate as me' - thus the guilt, get it? yayaya, some may think i'm crazy, but it's not like i can help it what!

i guess i just have to learn to count my blessings and be thankful. perhaps it's because of that incident that made me so depressed i can't think straight?

Forgive and forget. this is what i get from people. ya, what else can i do except to let the matter go? anyway it's not like i ever wanna salvage it or whatsoever, it's just that, i still can't believe something like this can happen. perhaps all along i've kept everything to myself, like my innermost feelings/thoughts and i needed an avenue to express my thoughts. i guess i made the right move afterall. if i d0n't ever leave, i probably will never snap out of this.

alright, it's time to sleep. i shall upload the pictures another time. ciao!

p.s. i feel wayyy better.

19 October, 2009

follow your heart

it's in times like this that i realise how much my family means to me - a sense of guilt

is it worth it?

2 very different people coming together - beauty? or tragedy?

words can't express how i feel

'follow your heart' i heard a whisper. yes, for once jasmine, follow your heart

it shouldn't be this way, it shouldn't feel this way

afraid to express myself at times, for it may cause more complications

after giving so much, after putting in so much, it ain't easy to leave

something not meant to be, holding on prolongs the misery

15 June, 2009

*comeback*

it's such a pity that this blog has culminated into an avenue for the venting of my frustrations. but then again, i'm not complaining. somehow or rather, i find comfort in expressing myself in strings of words which actually makes no sense if they are separated into individual characters. isn't language marvellous?

well, whoever had such a great impact so as to make me sit in front of my pc, once again, and complete this entry? contrary to what you may think, it's actually, imho, a big fucker.

right. i've been trying real hard not to cuss but this is way beyond me. i. just. cannot. retain. my. composure.

actuallly i have no idea where to start. this person, which i shall affectionately name deluded is the epitome of bitches.

firstly, her conceit deluded her to believe that she's smart. the moment i saw her she couldn't wait to gush with pride which school she was from, what her major was blah. but just in case you didn't realise, my dear girl, yours truly rejected your school, and secondly i'm sorry to inform you that any tom, dick and harry can easily take 2 majors. all you have to do is tell the school you WANT to take up another major. that's all. it's quite a pity you have been living in your own world, but i'm telling you, students from other school have to WORK HARD and only the top few of the cohort are eligible to take up two majors. get the difference?

secondly, she speaks with this weird accent which one of my friends commented 'my maid speaks with this kinda accent too!' it's the try-too-hard-but-sorry-i-still-can't-tell-if-it's-a-british-american-or-whatever-the-flying-fuck-accent you are desperately trying to emulate. i'm telling you this, i despise idiots who aren't proud of their roots. be it those who think not being able to speak mandarin is cool or those who try too hard to speak like they're a bloody foreigner because they think they'll be much superior that way. my take? get real. you obviously have an asian face with asian features, most importantly, you, bloody hell, have yellow skin.
SO LIVE WITH IT.


next, this lil bitch pretended to be so nice to me i seriously fell for it. just because i genuinely tried to be nice doesn't mean you can take advantage of me and manipulate my trust! pretending to be interested in our conversation and thereafter using whatever i say against me is so perfidious. the worst thing is, the bitch, on a few occasions, deliberately said certain things to mislead me into saying things that sounded much more casual than befits the occasion. which, i of course have to take some of the blame. i shouldn't have trusted that lil bitch.

finally, men. yes. men. how can i miss out this category. she was all smiles when she saw a guy. oh puleez, haven't you seen any cuter ones around? are you that deprived? oh i shouldn't have asked, someone of your calibre have to resort to blatantly flirting in order to get the other gender's attention. oh wells, god is fair.

whatever it is, it sure sounds like a winning formula for bitches wannabe. i'm just freaking pissed because this idiot used such underhand means to make people fall for the trap. everyone thinks that you deliberately make me look bad because you feel inferior. come on, why else would anyone in the right mind judge professionalism only by appearance? you obviously have no life, have no idea how to make up etc. but even if you knew how to0 make up, i doubt you will look anywhere near human. you prolly have to pay a visit to a surgeon to and change your face.

also, the next time before you even start to criticize others, take a good look at yourself first. i didn't tell it to the others on that day itself because i was sensitive. i thought having bad breath for a girl is kinda embarrassing, so i kept it to myself. that's why, the next time, before you even complain that people stink of cigarettes, check if your breath stinks first.

alright, i feel so much better.

14 June, 2009

quote from one of my previous entries:

"but like typical melodramas, full of unnecessary emotions, accompanied by tears, things end the stereotypical way. the meanies will get their just deserts. its only a matter of time.. "

06 September, 2008

*contentment*
I think being contented is a virtue. How many of us earthlings can actually walk the talk? We always tell people being contented is important, but how many of us actually practise it?

I'm in a super emo mood now. But I'm glad. Really. Cuz at least I know I'm still human.

Three months into the job. For the entire period, work was always my top priority. Family, boyfriend and friends come after that. I'm tired. Really tired. I need some 'me' time. And I find it very comforting to just stone in my room alone and cry. Throughout this period, there are happy and sad times. Like all jobs, my job comes with the usual goods and bads. For me, I can still say I'm rather positive. But, somehow, things just dont go the way I want it to be. Which, of course is perfectly normal. But when you see people pulling through difficult times, you ask yourself, will I ever pull through this?

I wouldnt say I'm a pessimistic person, but I cant say that I'm optimistic either. Okay I dont know.

One thing for sure, I'm trying to learn to be contented. Be contented with what I have. A contented person is a happy person because deep down inside, she knows that she has got the whole world under her feet. On the contrary, a person who isnt contented with her life will never be happy. Because when she looks back, she'll think, I should have done this/that, even when she has achieved something worth celebrating. And sadly, I have to admit that I fall into this category. Somehow or rather, I find that I constantly try to tell myself that I'm not good enough. In fact, I'm never and will never be good enough. When people congratulate me, I'll think that what I've achieved isnt a great deal, because if it was, I wouldnt have been able to achieve it in the first place. This is seriously ridiculous. Okay I know I'm not making sense but people with the same frequency should understand.

I love my family. I'm really grateful that I was born in this family. I''m grateful to my parents so so so much. They are the only ones who'll stand by me through thick and thin. Everything that I've been through, they are always there to share my joy or sorrow.

I love my boyfriend. Baby if you're reading this, I'd like to say a big thank you to you. Thank you for standing by me. We've made through the one-year mark. Not easy, I would say. For someone like me, being with a same person for more than a year is not easy. In the past, I didnt learn to cherish everything I have, be it loved ones or things. But now, after so many incidents, I've grown up and also learnt to cherish and love the people around me.

I used to be in a mess because I didnt learn to be contented with what I have. I'd say I was once a victim to the-grass-is-always-greener-on-the-other-side-syndrome. Which is sad. This time round, I'm determined not to let it happen again. Ever.

16 June, 2008

*fall for you*
One day, baby came up to me and said "i came across this song rencently, it's very nice. i wanna sing it to you!"

i'm in love. with you. with the song.

15 June, 2008

*The grass is always greener on this side*

Oh wells, to hell with the adage "the grass is always greener on the other side". I think this is an excuse to not give it your all, be it in relationships or work. I choose to think that the grass is always greener on this side

How many times have you come across people who tell you:

1) Why didnt i cherish my ex when we were together? I'm beginning to wonder why i chose (the current guy/girl)?

2) My previous job provides me with this/that but how come this supposedly 'better' job feels even more sucky?
The list goes on.

Familiar? Of course, otherwise the word "regret" wouldnt have existed. Actually i feel it's really important to cherish what you have and never look back, no matter what. No one wants to lead a life full of regrets right?

Okay, im sure some of you may be wondering 'what the hell is she talking about??!' but hey, i'm 100% sure i'm not spouting rubbish. soo, try to make some sense outta it!

05 June, 2008

*over the moon*

REMARK: YOU HAVE COMPLETED THE DEGREE OF BACHELOR OF BUSINESS WITH SECOND CLASS HONOURS (UPPER DIVISION) WITH A FIRST SPECIALISATION IN BANKING & FINANCE AND A MINOR IN SOCIOLOGY

I AM FREAKING HAPPY. I CANT FIND ANY WORDS AT THE MOMENT TO DESCRIBE HOW I FEEL NOW. zsj's so sweet, he gave us an A+ for fyp! its like ooooomg. omg. omg. omg. omg. omg. that's not all actually, i cant believe i actually did quite well for ab311 and hs203! haha i'm how lucky! gosh. i almost fainted just now. all these time i've been praying so hard to pass ab311 and i'm so glad i did better than i had expected! and as for hs203, the whole freaking world was asking me why i took a compulsory module when i could have chosen an easier one to do. my tutor even told us hs203 was like one of the hardest modules to take! i was super sad the entire sem la! cuz ab311 basically took up all of my time and i chose like the hardest module to take for my minor zzz. but then now i feel the effort was worth it!

yay! im so happy!

04 June, 2008

*nothing*
results will be out soon! omg omg omg.

meeting the guys later to have dinner! and then gotta go back to feed tamme and ricki. i think i lack sleep. tamme woke me up at like 11am SHARP today. i think he was hungry cuz he whined non-stop zzz. give me my beauty sleep!
*moment of truth*
Results will be out like in a day's time. I'm quite anxious actually because if I do relatively well this sem, my overall GPA may just improve and move up to the 2nd upper's range! Haha, okay I wish. I'm serious!

Ya, and I'm up now because I cant get to sleep! I cant quite understand why I'll lose my appetite during the time of the month. Not that I'm complaining! But it's quite bad today because I'm practically surviving on liquids the entire afternoon. I didnt feel hungry at all! I drank a lot of milk because I was feeling dizzy and eventually ate some fishball noodles at like 8pm because I was craving for something savoury. And I'm regretting now. Because I cant get to sleep. Everytime I try to lie down, I can feel puke at the back of my throat. Boo hoo. And so here I am, blogging at 1am in the morning. Sigh.

03 June, 2008

*update update!*

My blog's definitely in need of some updating I guess. So here goes.

1) Rosemarie went on a month-long break and so therefore here I am, taking care of my two babies and cleaning up my own room. -_- This means, I have to get up latest at 11am (which is so early!) and if I ever go out, be back by like 7.30pm. Why? Because I have to feed them!

I used to think like my maid has got nothing much to do, besides taking care of my beloved darlings. I mean, come on, how hard can cleaning up the room and taking care of two dogs be? But I was hell wrong! It's super duper tiring can!! And I'm only like cleaning up my own room!

My typical day sans Rosemarie: Wake up at 11am - Feed babies - Bathe them every 3 days - Wash some clothes - Clean up my room - Slack (watch dvds, vcds, l word and big brother's house) Haha, yes, I love multitasking so I normally turn on two programmes at once! - Meet baby for dinner - Feed babies - Slack

How boring right? Yawn. I cant wait for her to be back!

2) I celebrated my 22nd birthday with a bbq party! Hmm, I'm not really a fan of bbq food, but I reckon since the last bbq party I attended was more than like what, 5 years ago? A bbq party would be perfect! Alas, the perfect cloudy evening I was hoping for didnt happen. It was threatening to rain the entire afternoon and it did eventually, at like 5.30pm, which was PERFECT. I had to lug the stuff all the way from baby's house to the dumb pit IN THE RAIN! My arms hurt like hell the next day. All the while I was cussing like nobody's business. Like, to-hell-with-all-that-demure-shit kinda cussing haha.



Anyways, back to the dumb weather. I totally love bbq-ing in the rain. It was so bloody fun trying to arrange the charcoal and fire starter thing in the rain. Especially when you just showered and you have non waterproof eyeliner on your face. How cool right? I was super duper pissed, but baby kept assuring that the rain will go away. It did eventually, but not before getting all the benches and all my things wet! Thinking back, I was actually quite lucky because it was only a tiny drizzle. It it were to rain heavily, the whole bbq party would be screwed cuz we didnt manage to get the function room. Oh well, my birthday party was still a blast despite the gloomy weather! I'll upload the pictures soon!



3) Just some random thoughts. I dont understand why there are more and more super LC people in Singapore. Not only are they super low class, they're like ridiculous! Last week baby and I went to cineleisure to catch Made of Honour, and we met this super rude woman who had the cheek to cut our queue and pretend nothing had happened. I cant believe there're are such people around, seriously. Whatever happened to all that courtesy campaign shit? It's people like these that gives Singaporeans a bad name. We've been branded 'kiasu' and all that shit by dumb people who have nothing better to do for ages! A note to these people, come on, open up your eyes next time and look around. Not every Singaporean behaves badly okay?



A more recent incident. I was at an ice-cream shop at Bugis Junction on 1st June and I had to meet this disgusting woman with a fucked up face. She was like the most ridiculous and screwed up person I've seen since forever. Baby and I were in front of the glass display looking at the flavours when she just knocked her fat body onto baby and squeezed in front of us. I was like WTF?! Were we invisible or was she blind?

Baby was like: "eh, why's she like that".

I was super offended by that fugly woman la! So I commented audibly: "because somebody's rude, that's why". She turned around and gave me this dirty look. And then, she whispered to her daughter "crazy woman, anyhow say people rude."

Can you imagine how pissed I was?! I mean like, this fat and fugly woman knocked into him without apologising, cut right in front of us when we're obviously staring into the display. And she had the cheek to call me crazy! What the hell?!

Anyways, we ordered the strawberry cheesecake flavour and the saleslady thought we wanted to try so she took a small amount and passed it to us. Ideclined the offer and thanked her. Not before saying: " we're not as cheapskate as somebody who tries every single flavour." That remark was obviously meant for her but I think her pea sized brain couldnt function quick enough for her to realise that. How sick right? She totally ruined my entire afternoon. I must have been really unlucky to have met such a person. zzz

20 May, 2008

*Hokkaido II*
I think it's called uni. Sea urchin.Tastes... well, not too bad. I hate sashimi but this one leaves a sweet aftertaste. Everyone said it was super fresh, I don't know.
This is chutoro. I said I don't eat sashimi, but hell, I love this! One look at it and you can't wait to pop these darlings into your mouth. Not only is it nice, it's damn ex too! Haha about 20 bucks per piece. I think Tatsuya has got very good sashimi too.
The alaskan crab is how fresh. I don't eat crabs usually, but I ate quite a bit back in Japan.
Everything is super kawaii there.I love sunsets. Look at the clouds..Breathtaking..
They have corn potage in vending machines!

Little pony with a super kawaii plait on its forehead.When the sakura petals fall off the trees, they tie tiny pieces of colourful candies on the branches as a form of embellishment.
Button sakura tree
They're so pretty!
An pan man!

I can make a postcard out of this!

The clouds look almost fake
Don't they resemble big fluffy marshmallows? =)


By this time, I've already got sick of eating hotpots. They seriously come with all your three meals everyday zzz.
Gas station named Jass. How cool is it haha.

I'd bought this thinking that it was some kit kat beverage, but was super disappointed to find 4 bars of kit kat chocolate inside =(
But then again, only the Japanese will sell kit kat chocolate in a vending machine in a yes, glass bottle.
Copper! Not gold.
Crystals!

Gold ore. But it looks damn ugly here lol.
Snow mountain.
Looks like a piece of cow hide from afar no?
Potential postcard =)
Melting snow
I used my finger to leave my name in the snow. Which was of course a dumb idea cuz my index finger literally froze and I thought it was gonna come off. But thank God it didn't =)
Another potential postcard.
Super pretty right? I love taking pictures of the sun if you guys haven't already realise

I'm inclined to think that they're coniferous trees
Frozen lake! Bottom left of this picture
This looks totally Mongolia I swear. Notice how beautiful the clouds are?
Fresh milk from the farm!
I call it the meh-meh carpet
Sheepdog and.. sheeps. Duh
The clouds look super 3D here.
This totally looks like a picture taken from a farm. Which is, right.

Samurai villageSee that hotpot again? Anyway it has the most ridiculous name, only if you understand Hokkien, or maybe if you cuss in all sorts of languages haha. It's called nabei. The other kind with the paper on top is called kaminabei, which, actually sounds worse haha. But don't misunderstand, it's nice. But not when you eat at least twice a day for an entire week. It's just like asking you to eat minced meat noodles three meals a day for an entire week. Sick.
I believe it's some rice field or the like.
Back in Narita airport. I was told Japanese wear only black to work. Which explains why they look like a colony of ants scrambling around in the morning or knock-off time. See the above picture for evidence. Black....
Ramen museum in Yokohama.
Entrance ticket
It was specially designed to replicate ramen stalls in the past.
Looks ordinary. But this bowl of ramen is by far the tastiest I've eaten so far. Slightly better than Sapporo ramen.
I hate the flash. But see my bowl? It's empty! And yes, I wore this jacket deliberately cuz I'm a number one fan of the Japanese team in the World Cup! Although I gotta admit they played like shit in 2006.

Similarity? We have ERP and they have road tax collectors. Difference? They tax is wayy higher. Almost ridiculous. And if you see how many stops the coach has to make due to these tax collection stations, you'd puke. Seriously. But I'm not saying Singapore's any better. Japan's just a little worse.
Dark clouds..Chinatown in Yokohama. I almost thought I was in Beijing haha.
Panda. I have no idea. Upcoming Olympics maybe? But I love this picture! SO cute!Their skirts are how short!

Giant baos. They're about the size of Tamme's head. And the price's ridiculous cuz they cost an average of about 6 to 7 bucks. Yes, even the non-meat ones.

Oh I gotta elaborate on this one. We needed the washroom so badly we had to just make do with this one. A whopping 100 Yen person. That's like $1.35 SGD la. Crap. That's by far the most expensive washroom I've visited in my entire life! But they had an explanation for this.. It's supposedly a feng shui toilet. Right, whatever. Anyway, more pictures of this feng shui toilet...
Baby cradle.
Right, the first cubicle.. I don't understandSecond cubicle.. I don't understand too. But I reckon it has got something to do with your career?I know this! Something to do with money!
Fourth cubicle.. I'm not too sure zzz
This one's about love!
Starbucks


I order macha latte everywhere I go. This is by far the best macha latte I've tasted!

Burberry Blue Label. We were so looking forward to visiting this shop cuz Japan's the only country in the world that has Blue Label. But we're super disappointed cuz nothing caught our eyes zzz. I was like hoping to get a bag that's less common but too bad.
Ferris wheel
How come I feel it's like Seoul garden?
Mushrooms! My fav!
Crabby. This costs like about 200 bucks.

Want a bite?
This one's comparable to those mao tai or er guo tou in China. Super potent.Taken from a lift!
I think the flag is flown during the Omatsuri festival. So cute right
Box full of food
Super duper delicious milk pie.
Cheeeeeeeese cakeeee
Air dog. Narita to Singapore.