i freaking cant get to sleep!

okay, i have no idea what i'm doing at such an unearthly hour -_-

i'm supposed to be asleep. but. i. can't. yes.

i'm super irritated with myself. i have this sudden urge to blog, and that's why i'm here! problem is, it's so freaking hard to type with my nail extensions. it's been a week and i still can't get used to it =( but it's super chio la, so i guess i'm willing to compr0mise.

anyway, i went to jb for the first time (in many years). it was...... well, okay? not as bad as i thought it would be. BUT, i was only at city square lol. so technically, i didnt really venture beyond the m'sian customs hahaha. anyway, back to city square, it's FREAKING fun i tell y0u. okay i was exaggerating. but still, i enjoyed myself so much i felt super guilty when i got back. perhaps that's the reason why i can't get to sleep.

i know i sound super ridiculous but sometimes i feel this sense of guilt whenever i feel over the moon. but not in a way like 'i think i don't deserve to be happy' or something, but more of 'hmm, here i am, so blessed. there are so many more people out there who aren't as fortunate as me' - thus the guilt, get it? yayaya, some may think i'm crazy, but it's not like i can help it what!

i guess i just have to learn to count my blessings and be thankful. perhaps it's because of that incident that made me so depressed i can't think straight?

Forgive and forget. this is what i get from people. ya, what else can i do except to let the matter go? anyway it's not like i ever wanna salvage it or whatsoever, it's just that, i still can't believe something like this can happen. perhaps all along i've kept everything to myself, like my innermost feelings/thoughts and i needed an avenue to express my thoughts. i guess i made the right move afterall. if i d0n't ever leave, i probably will never snap out of this.

alright, it's time to sleep. i shall upload the pictures another time. ciao!

p.s. i feel wayyy better.